Sunday, July 27, 2014

finally posting some disney layouts

Finally took a few pics of disney layouts... this is a trip for dgd's 5th birthday that the kids took.  I finished the book and asked Adriana, 'do you want the book at your house? or my house?"  She told me, "I know you miss me a lot, so you can have the book at your house"  We did buy a 'disney' 8x8 album and we will create layouts (together) for HER book.  

this layout uses one of the backgrounds from the CTMH artbooking cartridge.  I can see this cartridge becoming a 'staple' in my scrapbooking.

psssst, finally used one of the fox wood veneers from freckled recently went to Yosemite, so maybe I will use the rest.   Oh!  Jason is planning a Yosemite trip that I can go to.  Adriana asked me "How are you going to go on the long hike?"   I told her, "We will need your wagon and you can push me"... ..."Grammy!  you are too old for my wagon!"...well, I guess Grammy had better work out and build some endurance...and get some good shoes for hiking.  
 Do you remember the Stampin Up shimmery inks...this is in platinum...a li'l hard to catch in a photograph...

 Don't you love this pp...I can't remember the maker...BUT the kids (C and Chris) are going to a country wedding next month...the bride posted a pic on facebook of herself cutting down a log with a chainsaw for her decor...I am looking forward to using more of these for those pages.  
My 'normal' formula is printed paper, cardstock matting and a small amount of embellies, so I challenged myself to do a layout without printed paper.  This is a very basic layout, but love how the colors work...just cardstock with touches of pink.

And I recently got to do a li'l shopping at Scrapbook Paradise in Reno...just love these colors...but had to restrain myself, I have sooooo much .  I am drawn to 'summer' type paper collections.  Don't you love that top paper, it is Bo Bunny...

During that Reno trip I also worked on 3 more of the Prima paperdolls...including the mermaid.  I seem to be in a mermaid phase these days also.   Mermaids and Fairies...whenever I find stamps with them...I pick it up.
I will get some pics.

Saturday, July 26, 2014

a few thoughts...

As ya'll know, I've been trying to lose weight.  At my highest I was 215lbs.  Then in November 2009, started a serious lifestyle change with the help of Sparkpeople and with it lost a little over 40lbs.  Then went on a plateau....while facing a hysterectomy...and had the fears of regaining the weight and then some after surgery, I went on Jenny Craig.   Was that 2011?    With Jenny lost @12 more lbs...putting me at a 50lb weight loss.

Then regained that 10...then another 10....and I've been on Jenny...but not strict.   And I find myself back in the 190's.   Yesterday, 195....soooooo, what do I need to do?   How do I get it back in my head to DO the changes I know I need and not just KNOW the changes.

I would say in 2014, I've really been looking/noting what is going on in my 'head' that leads to the eating/sedentary lifestyle.  Why?  What am I telling myself?   So, I've been more diligent about that self talk.
At least trying to notice it, so I can stop myself.

And there is a LOT of self talking in there.  Just recently, Svensons danishes were on sale at Savemart...ooooooh, I really wanted them.  Not just one, but one of every the mind is telling me "So if you get those where can you hide them?"... then I caught myself and told myself, "If you have to hide them, they are not worth getting'...and I walked on by.  Thursday at work I was tempted to have a pepsi, I'm standing in front of the vending machine with quarters ready....then I thought of the caffeine detox I just did...did I really want to throw that away?  And , I got water instead.

I have been reading "Reshape Your Life" by Candace Cameron Bure.  And as a Christian, I have struggled with seeing my overeating as sin.   In the back of my mind, I can think of the many reasons why it could be considered sin.  and I've had discussions with Cierra and Nicole about it.

- destroying the Holy Spirit's temple
- sin of glutteny and sloth  (yes, I can be real lazy, esp in front of the tv)

How I can hurt others
- dying early or getting a disease that my kids are going to have the responsibility of caring for me as I age
-setting a bad example, esp have my grandkids be as obsessed about foods and sweets

I don't really eat for emotion...I feel something and grab the __________ to make it better.  So I don't think it is emotional or stress eating.  In the past it was 'geographic' know, I am shopping at Tracy Walmart so I stop at the Weinerschnitzel and get a corn dog and soft serve.  THAT was a habit I could get a hold of and break.  (happy to say that now days, I do not even like the taste of fastfood and it is no longer even a temptation)

But I do have a lack of self control, I find that if I get the thought that I want something, I usually get it.

In the book, the author says something to the effect that if you consider this a moral issue not a spiritual issue, you will  continue to try to control it with your actions.  If you see it as a spiritual issue, you will bring it before God and repent...not an exact quote but something along those lines.

So, the question has always been, Why do you want to lose the weight.  answer, to be healthier and to be able to wear cute clothes.   But is that really enough?

Is there something essential I am missing because I have not invited God to point out my sin?  To bring me to the place of repentance?

I remember when I struggled with people I had issues with, some of ya'll might know of the famous neighbor feud on Pitscottie , God directed me to take those angry thoughts and use them as a reminder to pray for that person.  And it helped.

Where do I go from here?