Wednesday, January 25, 2012

been reading, a lot...

working on my 4th book. Though, I gotta admit, only one book was difficult to read...the rest have been fun and easy.

I work and commute with dh, he works a long day..sometimes he doesn't leave the office till 5:30 or so. He is a CEO and he says that means "Check Everything Out". I will not work that long. My Brain turns to mush @3:30 or that gives me a li'l while to read. I have also taken myself off of a website I was spending a lot of time on...and now I read. It has been a great new discipline.

First there was Far from the Madding Crowd by Thomas Hardy. This book was work for me, the language a li'l difficult for my 'modern mind'...and all the time spent describing scenery. Then I figured this was written during a time when a lot of people did not have the opportunity to they loved all the scenic descriptions I was finding tedious. The story was good. I hope to read 1 'classic' every quarter. I'm thinking Don Quixote for 2nd Q, April.

Then, Sugar Queen, the Bound Together group book I selected. Just a lot of fun.

Then, Hunger Games...oh my, this book made me cry. And just held me so spellbound, I could not put it down. Think Survivor meets Lord of the Flies meets Demolition Man. I just may have to get the rest of this series.

Now, Don't Look Behind You...a true crime by Ann Rule. It is good...prob not the best of the month.

I really like being part of Bound Together (on goodreads). It stretches me to read books I may not have chosen myself. The book I selected for next month is The Warmth of Other Suns: The Epic Story of America's Great Migration. I just haven't read much along these lines. I'm always afraid these books will be written with a subjective political narrative. I like history, I like biographies...but I know these things can be subjective instead of objective. So, we'll see how it goes.

Work is nuts. End of year...blah...but I am getting those tax forms out on time...and balancing to 30 cents at one company...and 44 cents at the other. I'm always happy with that.

PLUS our HR gal is leaving and I've been training to do her stuff. For me, it will be temporary...the new gal arrives mid-May...and its my dd!!! YAY!! dd and dsil will be moving to NoCal from Texas for a while. This way he can go to school full time after getting out of the Corps...and she can get HR experience to go with her Masters. Hopefully it is a 'win win' for them.

Of Course, I'm excited...I HATE being half a country away from them. Though it is understood they will go back. They love Texas and it is where they want to stay. I love Texas and dream of going back also. But, dh is not in the position to move...and since I 'kinda like' him too...I'll have to stay with him. ha!!

I've had good luck so far with the weight loss. On 12-29, I weighed in at 175.6...last Monday 170.4!! I was so focused and doing so well. Catch the 'was'? Yeah this past weekend I ate 'off plan' (I do Jenny Craig) and its been hard to go back ever since. I just crave real, good food! Oh well, I'll find my rhythm again! I certainly won't give up!

Sunday, January 15, 2012

a lesson...

On Friday, I dropped off Shelby to be fixed and microchipped. Now, I am not one to even ask 'how much'...I just figured it would cost @200.00...that sounds reasonable, right? I dropped her off they asked, Do you want blood you want the extra pain meds for $ you want a free tatoo near the incision, so other vets will know at a glance she's been fixed...sure!

On Saturday, we go to pick her up ...$ 550.00!!! that blood work...$170.00

Now, I was thinking it was some pre-op blood test...nope it was a full screen panel. (she is good, by the way)

And a li'l extra charge cuz she is obese. She weighs about 80 lbs...doesn't look fat...but guess there were some layers of fat where they were operating.

Oh, DH was pretty angry...told Shelby if he 'had known this was going to cost over $500, he would have left her a woman'

lesson learned, esp when dropping off a dog at the vet, ask 'how much', 'why' and 'is it necessary'.

Oh, she is doing fine...she is running around and not taking it so easy, and she has the plastic "flower" collar around her head...but the stitches look real good...and she is in good Yesterday, she looked like she felt pretty betrayed.

Friday, January 6, 2012

the plan...

I've been doing very well with my logging...water, exercise, Bible reading, etc.
BUT its only been the first week.

So, when it comes to food...don't want to call it dieting...but, you know, that lifestyle change thing... What IS the best path to success?

like yesterday, a coworker brought donuts. And told me one had my 'name' on it...I was strong and did not cave (instead of thinking of it as a donut I thought 200 calories) ANYways, I know this is a journey...not a sprint, but when do I relax a little? I know it is not encouraged, but I have told myself that when I lose @12lbs and get down to 165...I can have something (burger, burrito, donut) that I've been denying myself. Everyday, that craving changes.

I guess my biggest struggle about watching what/when I eat is that eating becomes the obsession. My mind is constantly on what I can have, when. Is this okay? Is it too early? I know that during the weight loss period, that is the way it is going to be...I just have to have the discipline to lose. BUT I do not want my life to be like this the rest of my life.

Well, I do remember on the Biggest Loser last season they talked a bit about brain patterns. How those who are obese react to food differently than average size people. Maybe I need to consider this period of time a 'repatterning' of my brain. I also read a book, "Who Switched Off My Brain" that talks about emotional brain patterns and that they can be repatterned to a healthier process. The book concentrates on toxic thinking...but I'm sure it all works for biochemical responses to food.

hmmmm, what an odd thing to ramble on about.

I did not finish JYC over the weekend. I was getting 'pissy' know, it bacame a task instead of fun. AND when the postbound album needed new pages...well, it got ugly. So, I decided to put it away till I could return and enjoy the process.

I worked this week...well, not Monday, as everyone had the day off. It is my busiest time...closing the month, quarter, year. Gotta get it all in and verify all the balances are correct. Then add to it, that our HR person is leaving in a month, so guess who got to 'train' to do payroll as well. Yup, that would be me. NOW they are not putting me in HR.

I am THE WRONG person for that position. I can do numbers, but people and their issues/drama I have no patience for. In fact I told my boss (dh) that the first thing I'd do is put up a sign "I Ain't Your Momma, and I don't CARE". Can you imagine me when one of our drama queens comes into the office with one of her wig-outs. Not gonna happen.

So, busy week. I have the day off today. But that is just from going work. Today, after my blood test, have a sh*tload of laundry (my husband goes thru a lot of clothes...seriously), floors that have not been swept, bathrooms that at least need a sprucing, and Christmas decorations that still need to be put away. Though, I think I'll save the decorations for dh can bring in the bins...teehee

AND of course, need to reserve some time in the scraproom. One of dh's honey-do's last weekend was putting up curtain rods in the back suite's, I can display layouts. Well, I need to chose layouts. HOPEFULLY will have a pic of that real soon.

Monday, January 2, 2012

Day 1...exhausting

I got most of my goals accomplished yesterday, except yoga. We only have one dvd player and dh was planted in front of the tv all day after church. Football then a Storage Wars marathon. Today, he promised to do my 'honey do's'.

BUT at the end of the day I was exhausted. All I can think is the combo of less calories, 30 min on the recumbent bike, chasing dgd for a couple of hours...finishing my SMASH book ... and my mind just going and going...pooped this old lady out.

So, need to revamp the day so I won't be too tired for the goals.

The daily goals I am tracking are:

my water, want to be up to 8 - 8oz per day

taking my vitamins, important on a 1200 calorie per day diet (had some hair
loss this past summer when I neglected this)

logging calories, I find logging them in the morning (since I'm on Jenny and it is
pretty much preplanned) helps me to really see what I doing each day

exercise at least 30 min 5 days per week.

daily yoga, have the disc situation that this helps with

did I cheat on my JC plan?

did I buy anything?, yes, gotta learn to budget

did I "Spark'?, go on the Sparkpeople web site to help stay focused

and read my Bible.

Not included in the log, so not quite resolutions...but I want to stop spending so much time watching reruns on tv. (no Storage Wars marathons for me) Instead use the time to read. I did not watch reruns...but I also did not read.

Did select a book to start the New Year with. One of my goals is to read more 'classics', I just stuck my hand under the table next to my bed and grabbed the first book, unseen, from the pile..Thomas Hardy "Far from the Maddening Crowd".

At the start of each quarter, I plan to read a classic. So, that will give me 4 classics for the year. You should see the stack of books on top of my table...this is a 'book table'..made to store books inside and then I have a stack under...I got it from my Dad's estate. I also got my love of books from him.

A big part of my buying problem is not only scrappy stuff but also books. siiiigh.
BUDGET what a nasty little word. ANd for this year, I want to buy only one book per month, the Goodreads group book. AND as far as scrappy, will limit myself to the 2 club kits per month. A good discipline, let's see if I can do it.

Also, want to rearrange the back room for an elliptical. Dh says he will get me one, so I have till Valentine's day to make the space. He would like to see the entire back room (formerly mom's suite) become an exercise room...but I have some scrappy overflow, my Wii, the spare tv (for those days dh watches football, Bond and Westerns)(yuck) and her couch back there and I don't see those moving.

So much on my noodle and so much to do.
BUT how do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time, right???