the plan...

I've been doing very well with my logging...water, exercise, Bible reading, etc.
BUT its only been the first week.

So, when it comes to food...don't want to call it dieting...but, you know, that lifestyle change thing... What IS the best path to success?

like yesterday, a coworker brought donuts. And told me one had my 'name' on it...I was strong and did not cave (instead of thinking of it as a donut I thought 200 calories) ANYways, I know this is a journey...not a sprint, but when do I relax a little? I know it is not encouraged, but I have told myself that when I lose @12lbs and get down to 165...I can have something (burger, burrito, donut) that I've been denying myself. Everyday, that craving changes.

I guess my biggest struggle about watching what/when I eat is that eating becomes the obsession. My mind is constantly on what I can have, when. Is this okay? Is it too early? I know that during the weight loss period, that is the way it is going to be...I just have to have the discipline to lose. BUT I do not want my life to be like this the rest of my life.

Well, I do remember on the Biggest Loser last season they talked a bit about brain patterns. How those who are obese react to food differently than average size people. Maybe I need to consider this period of time a 'repatterning' of my brain. I also read a book, "Who Switched Off My Brain" that talks about emotional brain patterns and that they can be repatterned to a healthier process. The book concentrates on toxic thinking...but I'm sure it all works for biochemical responses to food.

hmmmm, what an odd thing to ramble on about.

I did not finish JYC over the weekend. I was getting 'pissy'...you know, it bacame a task instead of fun. AND when the postbound album needed new pages...well, it got ugly. So, I decided to put it away till I could return and enjoy the process.

I worked this week...well, not Monday, as everyone had the day off. It is my busiest time...closing the month, quarter, year. Gotta get it all in and verify all the balances are correct. Then add to it, that our HR person is leaving in a month, so guess who got to 'train' to do payroll as well. Yup, that would be me. NOW they are not putting me in HR.

I am THE WRONG person for that position. I can do numbers, but people and their issues/drama I have no patience for. In fact I told my boss (dh) that the first thing I'd do is put up a sign "I Ain't Your Momma, and I don't CARE". Can you imagine me when one of our drama queens comes into the office with one of her wig-outs. Not gonna happen.

So, busy week. I have the day off today. But that is just from going work. Today, after my blood test, have a sh*tload of laundry (my husband goes thru a lot of clothes...seriously), floors that have not been swept, bathrooms that at least need a sprucing, and Christmas decorations that still need to be put away. Though, I think I'll save the decorations for tomorrow...so dh can bring in the bins...teehee

AND of course, need to reserve some time in the scraproom. One of dh's honey-do's last weekend was putting up curtain rods in the back suite's hallway...so, I can display layouts. Well, I need to chose layouts. HOPEFULLY will have a pic of that real soon.