well, it did not happen

I did not get the day off. When I called in, to 'make it official', I was told that the other accounting gal was out sick...2nd day in a row. So, being the end of the month, we can't have no invoicing and no deposits for 2 days. So, I went in to do her stuff. POO-EY. It's been a while (2 years) and a lot 'came back' to me, but I may have forgotten some of the 'details' and if anything has changed...well, too bad! ha!!


Stepped on the scale this morn...I'm finally under the 'obese' line. I am now officially, 'just overweight'. I have been lax with my food choices, like yesterday I had a soft serve cone...but been pretty good with exercising. So still losing, very sloooooooooooooowly.

A couple of kids and I are working on their scrap book Weds nights. My dh has a bible study that their father attends. Their mother is struggling with depression, so he brings them. Last night, I was SUPER exhausted, so we just finished a couple of pages making some cricut animals. The boy chose the alligator from Create a Critter, the girl chose the skunk from the new Live Simply Cricut Lite cart...soooo cute! and still 3 layers. Anyways, don't know if $39 is SUCH a great deal..but it is a cute cart! I may be picking up some more.

took the day off!

I'm all prepped for the close, was even filing for a coworker yesteday...so, I'm taking today off. It will be busy for me the following week...a day off is good.

So, other than a Walmart run and cooking dinner...its my day. What shall I do?

Well, I have 3 books waiting for that one last layout to be finished. I REALLY should work on them. And the men's bday cards need that one last touch..

That should be my concentration today...

Also I joined a 'new' website, Colorful Creations, I could do a couple of their challenges..

So, if I ever get off the computer, it could potentially be a very productive scrappy day!! ha!!!

I'll leave ya'll with this... what happens when I leave the scraproom door open...for some reason, Winston is absolutely fascinated with the glue dots roll...li'l stinker

crop yesterday!

Normally at crops, I am a 'machine', churning out dozens of layouts..yesterday not so much. This layout about my dad, took a looooooong time...I changed it soooo much, but when I finally found the package of Pink Paislee diecuts in my Scrapbook Circle kit...yeah, it came together.


Here is another layout using the Pink Paislee from the kit.


loving these kits, since I don't have an LSS near me, and the selection at Michael's and Joanne's is a li'l generic...I NEED a kit!

I worked on Adriana's trip to Indiana and Texas in October of last year...and made some cards for a swap I'm in on Scrapbook.com.

these are some I made earlier...



worked on b-day cards for men...not quite done, so not ready to post a pic.

it's Tuesday!

as a side note, the dreams have been much more normal the past few days. BUT 'chicken' that I am, I do pray as I go to sleep. get that 'extra' security!

Had a great SUNDAY, spent the day with Adriana, as her mom went on a 'ride along' with one of her Dad's coworkers...and both were out from about 11 am to 3:30 am...so, I got an Adriana day!!

EXHAUSTING but wonderful.

I brought scrappin stuff, but she took such a short nap, I did not end up scrappin'...but we did get out the stroller and went for a nice long walk..to Baskin Robbins! after sharing an Orange Sherbet, we then went on a longer walk home (to burn those calories) G'ma was a li'l dumb, I did not wear walking shoes and got a blister! oh well!

We then played at home, translation g'ma chase her all through the house!

and went to a Chinese restarant with g'pa. I 'discovered' something, g'pas are worst at spoiling than g'mas. Yes, I kept telling him, she's had enough and he kept giving her more! (at least it was the peas and carrots from the fried rice). He even taught her to wiggle her shoulders in tune to "Ummm,ummmm, ummmm" while she was eating. It was fun!


And she was soooo good at the restarant..but then, I brought her her own dinner...so she did not have to wait to be served...she just got a li'l of the fried rice. Her mom requested she not have a lot of Chinese, as Chinese is notoriously high in sodium.. I really admire how her mom (my ddil) is being such a good, dilegent mom..and I completely respect and admire that.



so, Monday was a work day...but I did get to spend the morning with her and Nyki...since I spent the night..it was soooo hard to get in that car and go to work!!



okay, gotta do my dvd! I babysit tonight, my regular Tues night! yay!!!

recurring dreams...

what do you think? are they trying to tell you something?

I've been having intense recurring dreams with the same theme, esp this week.

On Sunday, I saw something that triggered a strong emotional response. One that was also physical. I don't want to go into detail, but this has only happened one other time in my life. Over the same 'issue'...

I've always had dreams of running away from something and hiding..in the past I could go to my neighbor's house and hide in her 'fixed up' attic. (no dark attic for me, it was always luxurious) I could see what that meant, as my neighbors were a strong, Christian family...and I always felt safe with them. IRL, I 'hung out' at their home as much as I could. They are a big reason, not because of their preaching, but because of how they lived their lives that I am a Christian.


Then as a mother, I had consistent dreams of running away from something and trying to protect my dd...I figured it was because she is/was a strong willed child and I not only had to protect her from the 'world' but also from herself.

but after this 'trigger' incident, the dreams are back and much more intense. I am still protecting a girl, sometimes a young one, sometimes older...but she is now indescript, no longer identifiable as my dd...

last night was a li'l different...I actually turned around and fought back. I had these hooked shaped knives and though I kept slicing and stabbing, he would not die. If you wanna know what he looked like, he looked a li'l like the dad in Happy Days...odd, I know. He ended up defeating me, and I ran down a cliff. I think, I managed to roll into a crevice...but that my have been my 'awake' mind changing the ending. All I felt was fear that he would not die...and failure that I could not save the girl.

There was another recurring theme dream in my life, but those have faded. Maybe I'll go into them in another post.

So, what do you think? Did I fight back this time because of the changes I've made in my life, to take better control..esp with the eating and exercise. I do feel like I am changing in more ways than just losing the weight.

Should I show courage next time , and not run?

okay do I have courage to hit the post button...aye yi yi!

Windows 7

so my computer is back from the doctor...(our IT guy) and since I could not find my install discs for Windows XP, We had to go out and buy Windows 7. There is a bit of a learning curve for me, but so far its cool. (okay, found something I need to learn ..how to move my pictures into files once they are off the camera..)

Like with my old HP printers, just had to plug them in...did not need to put in the installation discs...and they were installed!

I do miss my Kodak Easyshare program (I no longer have the printer)...I loved how I could print pictures from 5x7 to 16 per 4x6 page..and the mini pics were not 16 of the same...but could be 16 different pics! I don't have that ability with my new HP photo printer. siiiiiiigh.

the only downer is that I've been having a hard time getting on Spark! While in Texas, my facebook sent out the 'I'm sad..." message which is some type of worm. and dsil recommended I change my passwords to be safe...esp since this happened within a week of the 'trojan horse' incident. well, since then, I've been having trouble with the Sparkpeople sign in. double siiiiiiigh.

Last night, Nyki and Adriana met me at the local high school track/football field. They are opening it to the public on Weds for the summer. We did 8 laps (walking), which I'm told is 2 miles. It was nice, and Adriana was quite good... a couple of times she 'hollered'...but Nyki would tell her to stop...and she would!

here's a pic of her looking up at us while we were walking her...she says "Up!!"

I forgot, or should I say I overlooked...

I've been so intent on losing the 'obese' label...I overlooked the fact that I hit the halfway mark of my goal of losing 65 lbs! Of course, in my head, I'm kinda changing that goal...may want to go for 10 more...HOWEVER that initial goal is to lose 65 and get down to 150.

Did have a bit of a mental setback yesterday. read the blog of another gal, who has lost 40 lbs...she said she went from a size 16 to a size 8...I've lost a li'l over 30 lbs and only dropped one pants size!! wahhhh! shirts, a li'l different, I've gone from a 1X to a Large. THEN I was talking to one of the gals at work, who also lost 30lbs (from Zumba classes)...she went from a size 14 to a 9!! boohoo!!

Here's a link to Andy's blog..I LOVE the way she writes...and she is doing a lot of the same things I've been doing, watching what she eats...adding exercise (walking)...very inspiring. (IF I don't compare)

Which I WILL stop doing! We cannot compare our journey with others, right? We just keep going and will get there in our own time and our own way.

Okay, time to put in that dvd...a friend loaned my Jillian Michael's Target Zones...this should jumpstart my 'problem' area...my tummy. "Beatrice" (that's what I named my tummy) is being a li'l stubborn. I remind her that she will get a belly button ring if she co-operates..and those who know me, KNOW I do not relish 1) needles and 2) pain.